Pag-ibig ( LOVE )

Perfect song for my bro's wedding...he's marrying his best friend and his soulmate. They are one of those couples who have been in love since childhood. A case of their eyes meeting across a crowded playground. Grown up together and now the thought of a life without one another is simply unthinkable. Ohhhhhh I am so jealous! This is so romantic! I dream of something like this. Romantic love...when chemicals in your brain kick in and you feel an emotional high, exhilaration, passion, and elation. Love that never wears off and eventually becomes mature...with signs that include acceptance, emotional support, commitment, calmness, respect, caring, kindness, friendship, and consideration. Liking the feel of each other....wanting to have children together because they are the exclamation point of love. 

Oh well a girl can dream, can't she? I still live in La La land where there are rainbows and unicorns and prince charming is just waiting for me at the end of the jungle maze and all I have to do is slay the dragon, find my way to StoneStep Hill, negotiate the price of a love potion from a chinese witch ( give me a discount, and I'll buy 2! Will sell the other one to Cinderella for the price of 2 LOL ), then grab an ice cold beer and mix the love potion in it and finally give it to thirsty prince charming at the end of the maze.

Would you want a shotgun wedding??

Despite modern women claiming they don't need men, couldn't give two hoots about traditional conventions and would rather eat their toenails than listen to their moms when it comes to marrying the man that got them knocked up in the first place, there are more femmes that aren't as independent as I might have thought...

Some women are choosing to rush the nuptials and opt for a shotgun wedding, walking down the aisle with a growing baby bump courtesy of their bun in the oven.

There are also women who are purposely getting pregnant, or pretending to get pregnant, in order to con their unknowing gent into tying the knot, and fast. Well it seems to work like a charm, until after the wedding when he catches wind of her little conniving plan. If the only reason he would marry you is because you are pregnant and he feels obligated to follow tradition, then forget it. It will surely backfire and in the end you are stuck with a shrieking kid, dirty diapers and loads of bills. Then your body will change...extra fat, nasty stretchmarks, saggy breasts and you are more likely to lose confidence. Prince charming will lose interest and might meet a girl who looks fresh. I've seen a girl got pregnant on purpose and say " Now my bf will marry me and love me forever" with a big dopey grin on her face like she actually thought it worked that way. Little girls are sold on the image of the huge "white wedding" where she is the star and focus of the entire show. She gets gifts, has parties, gets all of her friends and loved ones together to celebrate her special day. Sounds like a fairytale huh?

Why not just focus on the quality of the relationship you have now, and see if ; as his love for you grows, he comes to the conclusion that he wants to spend the rest of his life with you.

Being his backup plan

Why would someone let another keep them as their second choice? Or worse, third choice. How would it feel to be someone's backup plan? Are you supposed to place your bid and wait and see if he chooses your number? Wouldn't you mind being second fiddle and getting hurt if his first choice ever pursues him? 

Letting go...

Same old story that everybody knows, it's one heart that is holding on, one heart letting go. Papa used to tell me never to give up, never to let go. But papa, does it apply to love and relationship too??

Should I watch him from a distance first?? See if he's really happy...and if he is, then its time to let go. Or should I let him go now, then I'll walk away and never look back??

I'm letting you go, hoping you're gonna come round soon.